Its been a while since I last blogged.
Made a tweak and it looks livelier now.
You know, sometimes people are just in the no-mood state.
So, there are many changes in my life.
Its just the end of my first semester is approaching.

If it hadn't been the scholarship, i wouldn't be in a dilemma now.
If I were to choose to receive the scholarship, I must complete my course at UCSI.
Whereas I previously planned to be transferred to University of Queensland.

Now considering the costs,
if I just receive the scholarship, and by that I am obliged to work in UCSI as a service for the awarded scholarship.
Yes, it's like that.
65 hours for long semester and 35 hours for short semester.
OK, that is not a problem.
5 hours a week isn't much.
It's like working with a pay of RM60+ an hour.
So in 4 years time, the total costs will amount to approx. RM10k excluding living fee.


If I were to be transferred to Australia, the living cost and study costs is about
RM 200,000 ++.
W0W, thats a HUUGE difference.
But then it would be a totally different experience.
Learning new stuff and culture.
Speak better english.
And of course the quality of facilities and lecture will be better.
Cos the university ranks TOP 50 in the world.

Now its a matter of money.
My dad says it would be wise saving the money for my Masters.
Then I can study abroad if I want to.
Right.
Wise enough.
But I have been thinking of acquiring a degree from a reputed university.
And there is this saying that claims the degree's origin doesn't matter.
If its true, I think I better stick to UCSI.

This years Chinese new year is definitely a great time for me.
Not like previous new years which features travel-free-stay-in-your-own-room activities.
This time I went to Port Dickson, though not extremely enjoyable but at least its away from usual habits of hanging around near home.
Beside the usual New Year visits to relatives house, I went for an Angpow trip with my fellow secondary schoolmates.
You know what it means?
A travel group is formed, equipped with several automobiles to retrieve as many angpow as possible that day.
Its like flitting from one house to another for the sole purpose of angpow and fun.
Of course, we don't leave immediately after our mission in that place is fulfilled.
We grabbed the chance to switch roles and Gambles Prince and Princess.
The direction of money flow is truly unpredictable.
A minute later, I had a pocketful of bills, then seconds later, I began paying off money like a Fortune Deity.
But I'm not an all-nighter so I ended up in bed at bout 2 am.
I know some of you guys and girls out there can forget what sleep is but I definitely can't if I want to live another day.
Alright, after this eventful holiday, the avalanche of homework is on it roll again.
*Sob sob*

Can you become a spiritual master?
First, lets consider a few things.

Are you easily annoyed or depressed or angered?

Do you have something physical you are very attached to?

Are you willing to part with your money?

Are you willing to sacrifice?

Do you live to eat or you eat to live?

Can you live without the internet?

Do you seek for self-improvement?

Or your aim in life is to become rich?

Do you think philosophically?

Do you ever take the divine existence seriously?

Do you seek for a meaning everyday?

Do you treat loss as a part of life?

Do you treat material gains insignificant?

Do you really care about you health?

Are you fueled by envy, jealousy and hatred?

Do you live for others?

Are you afraid of death?

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The next stage of human evolution are the evolution in consciousness and spirituality.
Please, take these questions into deep thought.

Yesterday I read that genius was made, not born.
'Yeah yeah, I know' I can hear you say.

But genius can me made by just practicing.
Practicing what?
Not what, but for how long?

Remember the cliche "practice makes perfect?"
Science is telling us if we practice 10000 hours on a subject, almost everyone can be a genius at it.
Its 1 followed by 4 zeroes.

You might say, people like Mozart, Einstein and Bill Gates are natural genius.
But here's the fact.

Mozart started practicing music at around age 3.
A few hours a week.
As he grow older the practice increases several folds.
By the age of 20, he have already more than 10000hours of music experience.

Now about Einstein.
He is reported to daydream several times a day since young.
And through the daydream came the Theory of Relativity.
He daydreamed so much that he is able to visualize time-space.
So its still practice.

Bill Gates.
Did you know he was really obsessed with computer programming?
He sacrificed sleep and work round the clock on computers.
It started from high school.
And few years later, the time practicing might have already exceeded 10000hours.

So whats the main point?
We think that these people have natural talent or something.
We did not see their devotion and sacrifice.

As Mozart says, "people think my art come to me easily".
People just missed the part where he really put his effort into studying the works of great masters repeatedly.

I know you hate to know this, but there's actually no excuse for you to be lazy.
No more saying thing like "I just can't do it" or "I am never good in this".
Personally, I hate to think bout it too.
But I am also equally happy that genius can be achieved. :)

Today my sis is displaying her usual brainless self.
She tied our dog to pee and poo at the side of the house under the intense heat for 2 hours.
You know what the weather is like in Selangor nowadays.
Scorching and scalding.
Until I came home to find out the dog is panting profusely without any water.
Even the shit has dried up into crisp.
If I'm not there I wonder how long before our dog couldn't take it anymore.
And when I question her, she just gave me a nonchalant 'so? i'm not the one who's under the hot sun' look.
This is not my family's first experience of her idiocy.
So I just held my tongue and get on with it.

Note: Not that I really protect my dog but its her carefree attitude that's irritating.

We're supposed to be celebrating because we are humans.
We have opposable thumbs, we know how to put on our own clothes, we can type, we can read, we can clean our ass properly, we can mutter expletives, we can choose what to eat today and so forth...

But the most important thing?
We have RIGHTS and FREEDOM.
We can fight for ourselves.

And the best thing probably is we will not be eaten (forget cannibalism).
Just now I received an email about how ducks are being overfed (I mean forced to eat)
and how they are suffering.
I have sent out the mail and if any of you guys see it you would understand.
You have no idea how pissed off for me to see this kind of cruelty against animals.
They are unable to defend themselves.
They lack freedom.
They only have less than half a meter of space to live everyday.
They eat the same stuff everyday.
Some don't even get to see what a tree is.
They live in a stupid factory for their whole life.
When they think they are better off dead, its time to be slayed.

I know that they are just animals.
I know that they have lower intelligence than us.
I know that we have are not herbivores.
I also know that we are allowed to breed them and harvest their meat.

But I didn't know that humans are cruel to that extent.
Just for profits.
The unbearable selfishness.
If I hold the authority, those people who work there, those people who planned these, those people who helped them, I will have special gallows constructed for them.
Even the inventor gets their grave ruined.
Now I understand why there are an increasing number of vegetarians worldwide.
Not that I'm into anti-meat but just look how animals are born to suffer.
They are also very conscious, for your information.
So for those who really did receive the email, act like a sentient being and forward it, please.