Why?

Why can't I...
Make good use of weekends?( I always play)
Study continuously for hours...(my mind will wander after 15 minutes)
Read a book faster...(I tend to reread some part over again to be immersed in the situation)
Stop being addicted to anime...( i must watch bfore i study)
Be more awake in class...(i could not escape this)
Sleep lesser...(i think i need more sleep)
Be more organised...(my room is randomly decorated as a result from 'unplanned organising')
Be more talkative...(i'm a little introvert)
Be more motivated...(sometimes i sighs on the futility of going for classes)
Be more concerned...(i don't really worry about home though I'm far from home)
Be more aware of cleanliness...(I hate washing my socks)
Be more cool... (Gotcha...I sweat easily)
Not exercises...(Once i don't, I grow fat)
Not be hungry easily...(i want to eat as soon I don't feel any food in my stomach)
Can't spend wisely...(i use a lot of phone credit and more often eat sumptuously)

But I can...
Know my weakness
And try to improve

And I am...
Loved by my family
And still have friends
And have shelter and food and transportation and clothes
And college to attend
And laptop to MSN
And storybook to read
And time to sleep and play.

So I can...
Stop whining and just enjoy
What a teenage life shoulf be...

Been busy studying at the TBS library these few nights.
The environment is pleasant (lots of books) and the air cond is cool and chilling enough to tune in to study mode.
However, things have two sides.
If you study solo, you can focus much on your work but that ain't fun.
But if you join in a study group, you can have more interaction while studying.
Though sometime it distracts me, I actually felt better and happier while studying because I got companions.
Sometimes we can discuss stuff and gossip (its an excellent stress reliever).
Compared to revisioning at home previously, I seriously recommend group study.
Talk about the transformers movie I watched on Wednesday.
It is really cool and the animation is like no other.
They make it so real and they are quite creative coming out with the details of the robots.
And the suspense is always hanging, leaving matters unresolved and makes you attached to the seat even though you are urgent for a leak, like Calvin.
The plot is also convincing, and the part where the boss of Megatron, The Fallen is coming to take our sun. (oops, I've been a spoiler).
Sad case for my classmate who did not join us.
Everyone was captivated and keep complimenting the movie after that.
The actions were non-stop and its like never ending.
There should be a sequel to this second movie as Megatron is not dead yet. (oops, sorry)
I am sooo anticipating the third one, which should be an ending cos most movie producers prefer a trilogy.
I think other movies should learn from Transformers when they edit the graphics becuase it gives a super 3D experience and looked very realistic.
If someday we could really achieve a technology like that, I wonder whether what entails...
Will the humans dominated by robots (as in Megatron) or will we live peacefully with them (as in Optimus Prime)?

Lost

My wallet is really gone.
That night i waited and yet I did not receive any call from the cinema.
The next morning i went there again to ask.
And guess what they told me?
"Oh ya, I did not search. I forget".
You would like to see the way I smiled back at the a**hole.
Is this how you treat customers?
I felt like cursing him.
They brought me to search the hall but I am SO unfortunate.
Gone.
The fool is so kind enough to keep it for himself.
Guess they can't resist my cool picture on my license.
Hehe* I'm not a narcissist, OK?
Then I strolled to the nearest police station to report my loss.
Luckily, I can still drive. *smile*
That morning, I also visited the gym at Sunway and treid out a few stuff.
I registered for the RM30 trial for a month.
It s really cool inside.
All those high-tech machines and those freaking heavy dumbells.
The heaviest one prevents me from lifting even an inch.
And also the sauna.
Basically you are being steamed alive there.
Once you step in, you sweat immediately.
I also met a guy.
He is so friendly and ask for my hp number and offered to fetch me along the way.
Hey, I can't help wondering if he is a gay.
Must act with caution.
Its really weird for someone to be sooo good to you at first contact.
But the membership fee is really expensive.
Even with the cheapest student package, you need to pay about a hundred buck a month.
Its reasonable but hardly affordable for someone not so rich like me.
Plus, I need to spend time walking there, which take bout 25 minutes.
Man, I did nothing related to school on this week end.
Another time managing failure.

An Unfortunate Day

Arrghh!
I think I lost my wallet.
Today I went to watch movie with Joseph, Yit Guan and Banana.
In the middle of the movie (where the boring part is), I went to toilet, leaving my bag on the seat beside me.
But the seat is slanted and I PUT my WALLET on the front part and it slipped out (i think).
I did not notice and continued watching.
I shouldn't have gone to watch movie, I guess, cos I was supposed to study at the library.
But once I went there those 3 are preparing to go to Sunway Pyramid.
I had not the determination to study and so I followed them to seek entertainment which i shan't.
Only after we got back did i realise my wallet is not in my back.
That means spending RM14 back and forth again and without avail.
The cinema is already occupied and the staff couldn't just go in and search, says that people will complain about their rudeness.
Darn...
So I just had to leave my hp number and wait.
So i waited.
10.20....
10.30....
10.40...
11.00...
11.10...
What the heck are they doing?
I told them to call me even if they can't find anything!
I was pretty annoyed and worried.
So I just assume that they have some technical problem and unable to contact me.
I might as well go to Sunway tomorrow to ask and hopefully, retrieve my wallet.
Man, 80 bucks inside.
That is not the most important thing.
My IC and driving licence!!!!
can't afford to lose them.
I need to drive home tomorrow!
And my parents will lecture me!
Oh GOD, pls lend me a hand.
Give me back my wallet.
I also need to drive for a date.
And the GYM vip card I just applied today is in there.
Poor me...
Sob sob...
Hope I can sleep well tonight.
As Joseph says, look at the bright side...*a new wallet*
Duh...

Have you ever wondered why you will stone during a presentation?
Its because you are trying to look in your best form and do the best thing so that you are appreciated.
Bu your normal behaviour and demeanour is already your optimal performance, trying to be better is just making you feel not normal and you won't feel you natural self.
Researchers have actually shown that people fear public speaking more than they fear death.
You know why?
People prefer dying that making a mess out of oneself.
They rather die than tarnishing their reputation.
See? People nowadays treasure pride more than anything.
If they are humiliated, they might resort to anything to seek vengeance, or at least, wincing when they meet that asshole that insulted them.
Don't agree? You can try to insult someone seriously and watch how long that hatred lingers.
Human are such fragile and emotional beings.
Thats why people need love to protect them so that they can feel comfortable.
Have you denied someone?
If the relationship matters, go and mend it by at least asking how are they or greet them.
Even if he or she is still furious, these gestures will give surprise and mend the rift.

Books

Today I started reading a book titled The Bourne Identity.
After going through the summary at the back cover I decided to borrow it yesterday.
I started reading but I didn't like it.
The sentences are so unfamiliar to me despite i've read many other books.
It may be probably my English level is still below par for that book but the style in which the author wrote did not enitce or intrigue me to prompt me to continue reading.
Maybe I'm more into fantasy and science fiction stuff. Haha.
Things beyond reality is much more interesting and satisfying becuase there are often things you never come across before.
Like the previous book i read, Un Lun Dun (Unlondon) narrates about the other side of London, where obsolete things in the city end up in there.
It's sort of another world and bizarre things pop up between pages.
I might sound inclined to kid-favoured stuff but I just can't help it. :p
Never mind, I decided to stop pursuing the story and just start with the second book i borrowed.
See, just in case. Hehe.

Today i felt quite refreshed in class. I'm glad i slept early yesterday.
This few weeks i have been trying to be in bed the sooner the better cos i felt and read it does an excellent job maintaining your attention span and also intelligence.
Research revealed that the more sleep you loss, the more your IQ drops without you noticing.
People who are sleep deprived also tend to have a lower metabolism (i.e. grow fatter), weaker immune system and more emotional etc...
By skipping the afternoon siesta, the night rest is a whole lot better for me.

When i reach home today i decided to check my mails ONLY but i used up an hour for at the end.
That is why you should not turn on your com unless you really need to.
Better use them to do sth useful.

Went to exercise at the gym.
Feeling not recovered and a bit tired.
Not in my best condition.
Nowadays i notice many people go to train aimlessly while trying to build a good body.
They spend time doing sth they felt like and not planning what to do.
And they rest too much and waste time at the gym.
So when you want to start a slimming program or anything, PLAN and search for guides in the internet before attempting to try one.
You will only waste time if you don't.

I've finished another storybook.
Currently searching for another book, fiction preferably (cos suspense i what i want).
But a motivation book may do as i need to buck up for my studies.

Been a bit slack lately. Time to switch to a higher gear.

Talk about last Friday.
I was chosen by my English teacher to be a presenter as a practice for the presentation this week.
The title was : Should SPM be limited to 10 subjects?
There was a group a participating audience that will give their opinions on this subject.
We started and I propose that it should not limited to 10 subjects and we went on debating.
Sadly, none of the listeners agree with me.
Some say this will ruin high school life.
Some say there will be too much of stress.
But I firmly stick to my beliefs that more subjects may be good.
And then we stray off to discussing DotA.
Why?
Cos I pointed out that nowadays there are too many distractions and computer games and internet is one of them that hinders hardwork in studies.
This is for real.
When you sit in front of the computer with the internet connected, you will be tempted to surf the net EVEN though you have absolutely no idea what to do.
Tons of work awaits but stuff from the internet like MSN chatting, checking mails and watching Youtube besides downloading the latest cinema movies has a great deal of fun than fussing over a Chemistry question.
Ask someone and the truth will be revealed.
Because most people waste their time doing this, they face failures in exams or unable to complete their work.
I may not fail but I found my precious time evaporated before I know it.
You can say I'm a bit lack of self-discipline but who doesn't enjoy having fun?
So, I think next time I go online again, I seriously need to set a time limit.
You should do that too.

Holidays are over.
Can't help being irritated by morning alarms and classes that demand attention even they are boring.
The result i got are satisfactory, cos i did quite some careless mistakes that stole my marks.
The bad thing i notice is, there is no respite after this.
The hype of trial exams urges teachers to speed up their lectures, and students to catch up with the pace.
But now there is still time to enjoy a nice siesta and watch online movies (I mean anime). haha
During the holidays, I am sooo get used to sleep 10 hours a day that i couldn't help dozing off at class with just 7 hours a day. Cos I have accustomed to sleeping at 12 am.
Usually i snooze for half an hour and start to rush preparing for class. Hehe.
This sememster I have determined to study for 2 hour every weekday at the library.
I found this way is so encouraging for me to keep up with my work but as you know, I love books and sometimes got tempted to read other kinds of stuff instead of revising.
Haha.
Yesterday I started quite late cos I was reading Reader's Digest.
Then I peep at the headlines on New Strait Times.
Then only I start.
Man, life is so distracting.
There are too many other things that makes you want to dump studying and play more.
So, for everyone's sake. I think PC games should be banished.
Anime and movies should be banned.
Internet should not exist.
And study sutdy study.
And so our civilisation would be more educated, instead of pursuing a hedonistic lifestyle.Marvelous eh?
Nothing is impossible.
If it is so, I will be chased by gaming freaks all the way to the end of the world.
Haha.