College days are different as the last battle is imminent upon all SAM students.

People are affected in 2 ways, one taking it frivolously or study like hell.

The one that hits me is the former, as usual.

Unless the last minute approaches, I hardly ever buck up.

Skeptics may spit at this statement, but its true since you remember only pieces of memories obtained from revision so early beforehand.

Today, lecturers are either discussing trial papers or finishing off with the remaining syllabus.

I also got my Chemistry forecast to be an A18, that was adequate if my goal is merely As but I actually aspire to get a TER of 95 with entitles me to full scholarships at various uni.

But its not a child's play.

You know, getting an A20 (which nobody will deny dreaming of) means you have to be perfect in your knowledge and maybe a few flaw in you being careless.

Intimidated I am.

And here is the remaining pics..(=

People is always trying to look cool anywhere...
This was beautiful....wished my phone had higher resolution camera...

Night was chilling....

Food was awesome. Though some spoiled kids disapprove it.
"Cho Dai Di' is always the favourite game of all times to quench boredom.
Guess whose hands are those....(Reader: What?! You crazy ar?)
Romantic illumination...
This was where we climbed onto...A high rock to view the whole building from above. Stoners again...

Morning rise and shine....
Left, up : My bad....The other ones were very messy indeed...lol
I think these people have maids to tidy their bed...Agree?
Oh, sorry Joseph! Don't be shy...Be thankful the towel is on...haha

For VIP only....Luxurious rooms like one in a 5 star hotel....

Bet you think its the moon...Bah, its a star amongst star.... brightest one..
Aliens who landed on earth....probing here and there...
Another exploration and sightseeing.
The lowest floor is where the seminar rooms are situated..

One last moment after the group photo...Farewell, campers....

Results and PIcs

I knew today my trials results were to be revealed.

Honestly, I think I will do badly in Maths and others should be fine.

But my maths was 72%.

Perhaps it was a little higher than my expectations since I screwed up in many parts.

The other subjects i got:

ESL - 85% (This I crapped in the essay and letter but got good remarks from lecturer..had no idea why)

Specialist Maths - 77% (a little lower than I thought as it was not very difficult)

Chemistry- 78.5% (This was satisfactory but it could be better - so that I can score an A :P)

Physics - 82% (Also satisfactory...when teacher declared that only 1 person got A, I was kinda bitting fingernails in case I got a B...and it wasn't so great either as it's only 2% more than 80)

So, that concluded my results.

I wouldn't say that is good neither it is poor.

I heard Gui Fen's friend got 96% for Spec Math.

Not that I want to compare but if a underage girl (she's 16) can get, why not a guy from S1.

Its S"1" after all.

And thinking you got beaten by someone like that, you just couldn't help envying others.

I judge my marks by looking how far is it from the full marks.

So, it isn't really good.

I know some people in my class would be overwhelmed just to get a B but I gotta maintain my standards.

After all, I'm seeking to earn a scholarship for my degree..

Cos I am still resenting the fact that I rejected some college that can actually offer full scholarships for my 11As in SPM.

Instead, I poured 20K in Taylor's out of my dad's pocket.

Plus the monthly rental fees of a room for RM 500++.

Nevertheless, I met great friends there.

So, at least I get some consolation.

And, the photos from the camp.

There you go.

It basically looks like a school from outside.
Ben asking for a seat from those fat people occupying the place. (Ok, they're not fat)

The stoners : Brian and Joel

He claim the rock was comfortable.
Can you identify Jesus's face?
Dusk is nice.

More pics tomorrow....

Sorry but the internet is crawling at snail's pace.

(took some long waiting to upload only a few pics)

A CF camp

Impossible....

Time cannot possibly go faster...

But why this holiday ends so quickly?

Is it when your freedom is unrestrained, time just pass by without greeting you?

Ok....

At least I did something that deserves merit...

Not just sit on a chair and staring at the wall for the whole day.

I participated in the Christian Fellowship camp at PeaceHaven, Genting.

You know...

Christian camps...

Yeah, I know...

You will expect preaching and me return being a new Christian.

Uh-huh....

They do preach but I am not converted.

Not to say that it is not good.

Just that I can make a choice and I chose not to.

We started out on Friday afternoon.

The journey is not that exciting, coz the bus travel at a speed little slower than a sprint uphill.

I felt like it will take ages when I browse the scenery out of the window, as it is passing so slowly.

However, Genting is still Genting.

It won't take someone near KL a year to go there even if you are travelling at walking speed.

Our sojourn there was peaceful. (why do you think it is called PEACEhaven?)

The first thing we noticed is the coolness of the weather.

(Of course, its Genting after all)

Then, we unload our backpacks and stuff, rested a while and started off in the seminar room.

There you go, the 'praise and worship' session.

Singing church songs , praise the Lord and so on...

In this camp, they invited 2 speakers,an elder and a pastor (people who preach) for all the sessions available.

They shared their past and how they are converted to Christian and experiences.

The first one comes from a terrible background.

Back then he was violent, devious and naughty.

He admitted watching pornography and stuff and all sorts of bad things,

just because he was raised badly, discouraged by family members and being the youngest and least smartest (or other words, stupidest)

Then he explained how he met a pastor and transformed into a true Chritstian.

It does sound boring , but he has very good story telling skills and really funny jokes and gives bursts of laughter.

He did not hold back.

He was very frank in pointing out the harsh realities of life, how rape and sex goes on.

Ok, it was a lot of sex stuff but he want to talk about evil actually, the Satan.

(Oh gosh, I am using a lot of Christian terms.)

Haha.

The second speaker is no less capable.

He is also damn funny and talks about his love life and how he was dumped and how he sought God and how God helped him and how he achieve his current life.

At the start, he even 'condemned' other religion and deny the validity of science that the Big Bang and carbon dating is kinda bullshit.

He has his arguments but I think there is still a need for more solid proof.

(for me lar)

Most people explained miracles and supernatural happenings around them and declare them the act of God.

Although it cannot be such a coincidence of coincidence, but what if it was?

I personally believe in supernatural things, as my dad is also a seance and can perform rituals of summoning the Deties.

I've witness so I cannot deny my religion.

But neither I can deny the Holy Father existence as I saw people being taken by the Holy Spirit and fainted.

So, I'm quite confused.

In fact there is also this Allah (not to say I believe in Him) and Buddha himself is not God but for Chinese there is a Shang Di, meaning God also and Hinduism also have many Gods and so on...

So..

I decided I will just believe in one God who encompasses all of the religion, one almighty God that exist.

That fine for me.

Oh ya, back to the camp.

There offers an fantastic scenery of beauty of nature, the clouds, the mountains and the sunset as well as the enchanted faraway city lights of KL. (twin tower is visible too!)

And the weather is perfect, ok-lah, for Brian and some people its a little freezing.

We slept in the dorm and every morning there will be the annoying wake-up call from the drom leaders.

And there is a heater so we can enjoy steaming water in the midst of cold atmosphere.

There is also awesome people and some friends who stalk hot chicks.

At the first night, the starry sky is so mesmerising, thought the moon is incomplete.

People all lie their heads on Eric ( the biggest boy) as his flesh acts as one of the best pillow, with jackets on under the moonlight and frigid wind.

The dim road lamp adds to the brilliant atmosphere there.

There is also the boundless horizon that emits a orange hue during sunset.

It was terribly fun.

But I am the type who cannot stand late nights so I became one of the earliest who ent to bed.

Too bad.

And for some unforeseen reasons, my eyes was damn tired and was straining most of the time.

But my friends looked just fine.

The food there was delectable and really delicious for some dishes.

We were served rice and Chinese dishes during lunch and dinner and coz its 10 in a table,

sometimes I am lucky enough to end up in a table fewer than 10.

So I had more than enough to eat.

But once I landed on a all boys table, where no girls present to keep their manners,

I swear the pork and the tauhu (entire dish) empties in about 10 seconds.

They were outrageous, each competing to eat faster so they can get enough food.

And I was watching unaccustomed to this 'culture'.

For breakfast we had some really nice toasted bread and porridge and fries and fish chips.

As the cafeteria sold hot Maggi cups and Pringles and Cloud 9, these were the snacks and supper.

Overall the place was very clean and it was worth the time.

Ok lah, the church songs are also euphonious, not as boring as I think.

One more thing, the games.

Basically, there is group telematch between Nasi Lemak, Muruku, Karipap, Char Siew Pau, Char Kuei Tiao and Bak Kut Teh team.

One station invloves finding marbles in flour using your mouth and it was quite disgusting when you ate the flour.

Not bad, afterall.

During the Crazy Night, they played balloon stepping, the childish yet fun game where you have to step the ballons tied to your opponents leg and there is a leader and when the leader ballon burst and your team loses that kind of a little lame game.

On the way returning, I expect the journey to be faster, as you're going downhill.

But the bus driver was so kiasi that he brakes all the way down, slowly but surely.

Though Bus 2 left first, Bus 1 reached first.

Nice memories for me and I got some enlightenment.

And pictures will be on tomorrow, or maybe a few days later.

Ah...What fretless days after an exam...

Not to worry a single bit about whats going to happen if you sleep till noon.

No more rising on unearthly hours.

Forget about mathematics and science.

Do what you love.

Laze in sofas and on the computer chair.

Watch endless movies at home as well at the cinema (as much as your wallet allow)

Act like textbooks never existed.

Immerse totally in a sybaritic lifestyle.

Shirk all you duties without guilt.

Let laxity take over.

No more walking apace.

Shuffle and meander as slowly as you want.

Let entertainment supersede stress.

Enjoy while I can.

Ahhh~~~

The world is closing in me.
Trials on next week.
How heavy can the load be?
As heavy as you can endure,
Only leaving you breathless.

Take it easy I say,
But the fruit will be sour,
Since the more you put in,
the sweeter gains you get in turn.

Let it be,
As it will be.

Hey, could this be an animal gallery?
Haha.
Its my dog.
A very wierd name. (My sis fault)
Meet Dada. The mini pincer.
Nicknamed Brown Carpet.
She is small enough to confortably fit into a 1x1m cage.
You see, we don't allow her to roam freely as she will just run off to the streets,
and start barking and chasing away strangers.
Actually, it was her sheer barking sound that cause some hesitation.
In fact, if you dare come closer, she will just run away cos she is scared.
And sometimes she can be very annoying.
Relatives and friend who drop by gets a good reaction from her.
Anyone except my family is considered 'bad people'.

But my sis loves to play with her.
Once when mom was out, they let her into the hse.
Mom wouldn't allow so cos the dropping fur will spread in the hse.
My mom takes cleanliness as her priority.
So, my sis took a plastic bag, cut off 5 holes and fit her in. (Four plus the tail.)
When she runs around in the hse, you can hear the rustling sound and see her awkward gait.
Which makes me want to LOL.
She also have no taste for food.
Anything that is edible, beside her dog biscuits (that she eat everyday til she takes any other thing we give) she just gobble it up.
Include vegs and bitter gourd.
She just don't munch, but rather swallow.
So far we only trained her to sit down and wag her tail when food comes.
And to pee and shit on the place where cleaning is easier.
Sometimes i felt pity cos we are quite busy and she is quite deprived of evening walks.
A short stroll can just make her ecstatic and wag at 'high frequency'.
Also,being a dog, she is afraid of bathing.
Cos my mom always help to do the job, she is particularly afraid of my mom.
She always know when we are preparing the hose and soaps and try to get away with it.
Unfortunately, she has nowhere to run.
Haha.

OK, better not to be too fascinated with my bitch.
End of introduction.

Meet Brian Ong (Ming Ming).
He is a classmate of mine who is quite amusing.
Today I get to know him deeper.
Today he is broke cos he paid RM 120 for a Genting trip.
So he ordered only a roti telur for lunch.
But though he is thin, his stomach is certainly able to fit more than a pea.
Trying to save money, he even finished the sauce.
Trust me, if he was alone, im sure he will lick the plate shiny clean.

Couldn't imagine he is totally broke, i asked if he had any savings.
He does, but he says " You know, i won't touch those money. Cos when someone ask you to go out, and you say you're broke, you miss the fun. So i must save some money to prepare for those occasions. You'll never know when it'll happen"
"why, you can borrow from you friends"
"If i do so, they will just slap me on the face"
He also claims that even if he has a fatal disease, he will either recover himself or just die off.
Before that, he will burn all his money.
He thinks he should not spend those money nor let it end up on other people's hand.

Plus, when we were writing an essay on whether tourism should be encouraged,
He totally agreed.
He said there will be migration of exotic species into the country.
If you think of animals, you're wrong.
He meant chicks.
More beautiful ladies will come here and we can marry them and have babies.
" If not, would you marry all those ugly people in Malaysia? If China does not export their babes, how many pretty girls are there in Malaysia?"
Whoa, an insult to Malaysian girls.
haha..

Cos his english is so good (his essay has beautiful structures and fabulous vocab), i asked him how he could describe something so well with mesmerizing words.
" Go and read some erotic books online. They describe things very precisely , like bla bla bla....Those authors are very good at describing and you can learn new words too"
True, i thought.
But not my choice.

See, what extraordinary thoughts.
At least he have some sense of humour that he himself think he is perfectly normal.

Every time I see this, I tell myself to sort out later.
Later turns to tomorrow,
tomorrow becomes next week,
next week augments to next month,
next month evolves to....
Sry, not possible...:0

But then I would linger on this....
On of the cardinal sins you can commit during or near examinations...
I can tell others how to study, but i am immune to my own words.
Somebody save me? Pls?

The day i planned.
Reach home,
get a cold and refreshing bath,
sip some Milo and chew some bread,
start studying for 2 hours.
Then use half an hour for exercising,
take another bath,
have dinner,
study,
sleep.

Thats what i want.

But today (almost every day),
Reach home,
on my laptop,
check mails,
watch one piece,
and search for stuff.
And also ate two packs of Maggi mee.
This took 3 hours.
Then i went to jog.
Met Harin and have some chat.
Took 45 minutes.
Ate dinner with Yit Guan, Harin and Tze Hong.
Bout 1 hour including waiting for them.
Study stupid Maths.
A huge chunk. 1 and half hour.

Forget about Spec maths and chemistry.
Its time for bed.

So, is the first or second one better?
One with more social interaction, one with more productive revision.
You decide...

Future career

Currently, i'm vacillating between courses i'm planning to take next year.
The top 2 im my list would be mechatronic and chemical engineering.
My heart is sloping towards mechatronic, but i am still unable to dismiss chemical altogether.
Mechatronic is more difficult, but have a brighter prospect.
On the other hand, i don't really like chemistry so much but there is a variety of jobs available.
But since my ultimate goal is to be a physicist, should i pursue mechatronic instead.
It sounds interesting, encompassing electronics and mechanics. And also robotics.
But i don't really like circuits either.
So....which one should i pick....